Will I always feel this way

So I think I may have hurt my dogs foot by stepping on it. She seems to be favoring it and has been for the past week…yet when its time to play and run around she is fine. I probably should still get her checked out.

I have been living the life of a 70 year old for the past 6 months.

It was good to hang out with my homies over the weekend. I need to do more of that.

Excited for my trip to the east coast coming up. Perhaps it will enlighten a possible decision I may be faced with pretty soon that I’m already stressed about for no reason.

Dog sitting for 4 days starting Thursday. Should be good to spend quality time with the Wrigs, Gracie and Bob cat. Not looking forward to the hair though.

It’s been in the 50′s and 60′s of late, and it’s early January. I’m not sure how I feel about this. We haven’t had one halfway decent snow yet this winter. I’ve been hoping to take some snow photography pics, but so far it’s been more like early spring. The birds were chirping today.

So check out my friends website I am helping with by taking some pics. She is doing some good things, trying to save a persons life by raising money via necklace and bracelets that she is hand making with pieces of a burqa she obtains from the person for whom she is trying to save. If you can support the cause in any way, that would be awesome. http://lespetitesvictoires.com/Les_Petites_Victoires/LPV_INTRO.html Make sure to watch the video and then enter the site.

 

And I said I know it well

“But it’s just the price I pay,
Destiny is calling me,
Open up my eager eyes,
‘Cause I’m Mr. Brightside”

I took Nana Banana to get groomed a few minutes ago. She needed it bad.

My goal for the New Year was to be more decisive, and of course right out of the gate I’m hit with a big decision that is testing my decisiveness. Funny how life works sometimes.

While at dinner the other night with my parents, the owner of the restaurant whom we know came up to our table and told my dad that he and his family had done the puzzle my dad had created and sold to him a few years ago. I think that probably made my dads month, knowing somebody was doing something with his project he worked on for several years.

It’s kinda crazy to think the Super Bowl is going to be in Indianapolis. I think most people who come in for it from other states will be surprised at how well everything is put together and how cool it is to have everything right in the middle of downtown Indy. I was down there the other night checking out some of the streets they had converted for the game and I think it’s going to be pretty awesome. When I lived in Phoenix and they hosted the super bowl, everything was so spread out and the stadium was so far away on one side of town, you couldn’t really even tell that the Super Bowl was going on.

I keep forgetting to sign the photos I print and sell. One day when I’m dead and somebody claims to have a “Sanders” that isn’t signed, they might get screwed out of what it’s really worth…

The paragraph above was written with my tongue embedded in my cheek.

I am really looking forward to my east coast trip. It will be nice to have something new to photograph…and also will be nice to see the Ocean, even if it’s while I’m in my snow suit. That would be a first for me.

 

Everything that I said was true

It’s New Years 2012. Last year at this time I was in Austin, Texas with a girl. The year before that I was in Wyoming by myself. The year before that I was in Indiana with friends. The 2 years before that I was in Arizona with friends. The year before that New Years was my 7th day in California. Funny how I can’t remember any New Years before moving to California. Almost as if that is when my life started.

Tonight I spent at my parents, watching a movie called ‘Crazy, Stupid Love’ starring Steve Carell and Ryan Gosling. Emma Stone was also in the movie. I didn’t really know who she was until I watched “The Help” a few weeks ago. I began to enjoy watching her during that movie and tonight only furthered the cause that I am a fan of her. So Emma Stone, if you are out there, I am now a fan…and if you want to go out sometime, let me know. My facebook account can be reached by clicking on the link over to the right.

So starting Monday I will have 3 photos hanging for sale in downtown Indianapolis at the Chamber of Commerce building as part of a 2 month art show.  Hopefully people like my photos and hopefully it brings me some good exposure. I am looking forward to going down there and seeing how they look hanging on the wall.

I booked my parents 2 weeks on the east coast later this month in a few condos. I booked them at a place in Cape Cod and a place in Newport, Rhode Island. Assuming I haven’t found a job by then, I will be taking my dad for one of the weeks and my mom will be meeting us for the other week. I’ve never been to New England, so I’m very excited about all the picture possibilities of the coast and and lighthouses and such.

My goal this year is to be more positive and to be more direct and decisive.

“And if I could be, who you wanted”
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time”

Could I live out in the middle of the desert, working at an amazing resort, surrounded by national parks and thousands of incredible photo opportunities, far away from any big cities, starting over in a town I do not currently know a soul?

I liked that movie I watched tonight. It had some really funny parts and Emma Stone.

Careerbuilder keeps sending me tech job recommendations. Why would they do that? I am not a techy nor do I believe I ever told them I was.

 

 

Don’t Let it fool You

I’m laying here listening to Bon Iver…which is probably my music flavor of the month. I really like his music…however as I type this I am realizing it’s very mellow, somewhat depressing music. I tend to like this type of music, perhaps because it kinda fits my mellow personality. However, It’s probably best if I were to listen to less depressing music, because it doesn’t do much to lift my spirits. Where is my Guster cd?

What in the hell am I going to do with myself? I ask that and people say “do photography”, but that’s a tough way to try and make a living.

My mom asked me today if I were to meet a bubbly, outgoing girl would I talk more. She also said she was concerned that I’m not being social enough at this point in my life. My dad told me today I should get married. I am seriously turning into George Costanza. I think they are trying to tell me something.

A girl I met for the first time the other day told me I reminded her of Forest Gump. She said it was a good thing, but I’m not sure how there is anyway to take that as a good thing. Then, later on she told me I am a cross between Napoleon Dynamite and Forest Gump. Is there any reason whatsoever to think that is a good thing other than Napoleon D. had some sweet dance moves? I say not really.

Seriously, what in the hell do I do with myself? Where do I live? How do I make it all happen? Is this why people go to church?

I often times try to think at what point in my life did I make the wrong decision to put myself on a path of making things really difficult on myself. It tends to always lead to sports decisions…should I have kept playing baseball because I was really good and it was my favorite sport and I might have done something with that….should I have played college basketball which probably would have increased my chances of graduating college? But then I think that I am wired to live my own life and do things outside of the playbook and create my own path…and this is how my life is supposed to be. I dunno…just things I think about when I’m feeling sorry for myself I suppose. I’ve passed up on so many things this year alone that would have really sent me on a new path…I’m starting to wonder why I didn’t pull the trigger when in the past I would have without much thought. I’m becoming more selective in all aspects of my life, I suppose not wanting to waste time on the wrong things. However, I worry I’m becoming too selective. Who knows.

Take a bow

I just learned that I didn’t qualify for either the “nice” list or the “naughty” list this year due to lack of doing enough worthwhile to be judged by Santa….therefore, I won’t be receiving any presents….however, my name will not show up on the naughty record which means it could be worse.

Fa la la la la

Came across this video on youtube and thought it to be accurate. I personally don’t believe a guy and girl can be “good” friends unless at least one of the two is interested in dating the other….unless it’s really unique circumstances. You can certainly be friendly with members of the opposite sex and call them friends, but you aren’t going to be spending a lot of time with them unless one of the two is interested in the other.

It’s Christmas Eve and my Christmas is over. We had our family stuff the past few days and I ate like a king. I need to do some serious working out this next week.

Here is another video I saw that I thought was pretty funny.

Mom is doing some serious snoring right now. Somebody nudge her.

Use your intuition, it’s all you’ve got

Today is my family Christmas. For the past 40 or 50 years my moms side of the family has always gathered on Christmas Eve. This is the first year that tradition will not take place, and we will just be celebrating with out immediate family which I am pretty excited about. There will be 8 adults and 3 little kids all jammed into this little house and everybody is spending the night. Needless to say I will have to sleep on the floor probably.

I was in Chicago the other day for a few hours. I love Chicago. I’ve always wanted to live in Chicago. Why can I move across the country multiple times but not pull the trigger on moving 2 hours away to a city I’ve always wanted to live? Maybe it’s simply not having a job there. I also worry about the lack of nature that I crave. Maybe it’s the traffic. Someday I will get there.

Sometimes I hate being a Pisces. It’s a blessing and a curse.

The clouds are good today…I need to go find something to photograph.

It’s Christmas time in Indiana and our grass is still green. What is up with that? If i’m going to live in Indiana during the winter, the least mother nature could do for me is let it snow on Christmas. Otherwise, I might as well live in a warm weather state.

My mom has to be the hardest working middle-class mom in the world. She works all day, comes home and immediately starts cooking or doing other stuff at home.  Not to mention taking care of my pops and Nana Banana. Big ups to mom.

I gave Nana Banana a bath last night. She was so dirty from playing in the yard with the neighbor black lab puppy Sophie. Sophie dominates her and Nana just lays on the ground and rolls around, getting her white hair all muddy and getting doused with puppy slobber. She probably needs a bath on a daily basis…but no way that is happening. Takes forever to brush her and dry her off. I think she needs another dog friend inside this house so they can play inside the house and not get all dirty outside. Or I need to invent an at-home system that brushes and dry’s off dogs with hair like hers.

I wrapped 6 presents yesterday and they might have been the worst wrapped presents in the history of the world. I probably should have just put them in bags.

 

 

It is me after all

“How my thoughts spin me around, and how my thoughts they let me down”.

I ran the hill quite easily today. I find my mood affects my energy level when running, and the hill is a good measuring stick. I ran it 2 days ago and felt as if I was going to die. Today I almost ran it twice, but it started raining.

Blogging 2 days in a row hasn’t happened for me in a long time. I must really be in need of attention.

It was 65 degrees today…10 days before Christmas. Hmmm. Santa might need to wear layers in case he needs to cool off.

I watched ‘Robin Hood’ tonight starring Russell Crowe. I like period pieces, so it kept my attention in that respect. But I thought his character was boring, which made the movie boring. I don’t recommend spending 2.5 hours of your life on it unless you really have nothing better to do or find yourself sitting on an airplane….and the other option is staring at the seat in front of you.

The highlight of my day today was going to the post office. I learned that if mailing one disc, i need 84 cents worth of stamps instead of having to mail it from the post office.

It’s been raining all day. I love sleeping when it rains. Instead of using one of the sound machines that makes the rain noise, perhaps I will invent something that sprays water on the roof at night to more realistically make the sound of rain. It would have to be recycled water, otherwise that would be a huge waste of water each night.

The Girl

I like this song.

Sometimes I like going to the Home Depot to just walk around.

I realize I am turning into George Costanza.

My battery life is at 19%…i need to think of something to write quickly.

I almost drove to Brooklyn today. But I didn’t and so I sit here and write.

I think technology will ultimately driving me insane.

I wonder what would happen if currency was removed from the world. Would people just stop progressing their ideas or would people who have passions continue to get things done? Would the equal playing field be a good thing or a bad thing? How long would it take for people to learn how to grow their own food to eat? Would Donald Trump be able to survive?

Random Thoughts 12.7.11

I am forcing myself to blog today even though I can’t think of anything to say.

Today I find myself brainstorming ideas about what to do with my life, and what might be my niche in this world.

I’ve not followed the path, more so I have wondered through the forest in hopes of finding my way out the proper side.

I get distracted to easily.

The piano next to me is dying to be photographed, and I may have just thought of an angle I have yet to try.

I’ve started listening to the “Broken Bells” Pandora station and it is by far the best station I’ve listened to on there.

I can’t believe 2011 is almost over. What a weird year. It might go down as the biggest waste of a year in my life, or might end up the most important, all depending on what I do with what I learned. Of course you could say that about any year.

I was offered a job at Duke University and turned it down. I was offered a job in Jackson Hole, Wyoming and turned it down. I was offered a job in Columbus, OH and turned it down. What if I would have taken one of those?

I haven’t been on a date since May…and yet somehow that doesn’t really bother me.

Christmas ornaments….such a simple concept. I need to design one and sell it.

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